Yesterday was Mothers Day.
For me, this is a particularly tough day.
When Levi passed, I questioned, “Am I still a Mom?”. Now I know clearly, that yes, I will always be Levi’s Mom. My child is in the spiritual form, not the physical form and he is with me every day of my life.
My preference would be to receive that personal hug, the flowers from the FTD florist and the card from Halmark. The commercial part of Mothers Day drills in the expectations.
As the years have passed, I notice that people have forgotten that I am a Mom and I do feel left out of the celebration. What this means is I have to take responsibility for it myself. I decide ahead of time, how I will spend the day, how I will celebrate the day.
I make it a good day but I can also say, when I put my head down on that pillow last night, I thought… I made it through another Mothers Day. I tell you this because I want to normalize this feeling of just getting through the day. Sometimes, its the best we can do. It is okay.
So Happy Mothers Day to all of you. Please share how you made this Mothers Day special for you.
Hugs.
I lost my only child on May 15, 2011. I treasure that last Mother’s Day I had with him even though I took it for granted at the time. I’ve been thinking about the various holidays including Mother’s Day 2012. I decided to send a Mother’s Day card to myself, esp. since the people in my life might be tip-toeing around it. Heck, I might as well share a toast with him, eh? I don’t want to be sorrowful that day nor do I want to suddenly not be a mother after 35 years. There are lots of other days of the year that I can grieve!
I LOVE IT! What a great idea!
Join the club no one wants to belong to but what a journey!!!!
I live in Shanghai, China so I am censored from my own web site so I am very belated in my response. My apologies.
All I can say is ” You go Girl”.
HUGS.
Debi
…and what a journey indeed! I’ve grown to dislike that word (“journey”) since it’s so overused these days, esp. on reality shows such as “The Bachelor/ette” and “American Idol”. But it’s the perfect word for this experience; this experience is so much more than a process.
If you run out of blogging ideas, maybe you could write a post about how parents grieve in China.
At any rate, thanks a bunch for your kind response =)
Hugs to you too!
Kelly J.